Sunday, November 28, 2004
bored
ok...feeling bored rite now...and also feeling sleepy...duhh...look at the current time...does tat tell u the reason why??hahaha...ok...juz now i was occupied..now im available..shacks...i mean..juz now i was doing someting...now..im not doing anyting...ok..juz now..i sms mahirah but she havent reply....den i sms limin...so..i called her on the phone..talked to her..and den put down..and den i sms her..and den...she go to sleep..early ah.....so now..12 plus..waiting for mahirah..guess...i must wait till morning again..but no choice..have to wait..really want to chat with her...i miss tat lil sis of mine... ok...juz wanna tell u a lil bit... previously..wen i was stress....i got listened to tis sad song ah...den while listening to tat, i tot of alots of tings ah..i tot of all the tings tat has been going arnd..den i tot of my life...haiz...damn sad ah...den somemore the song very sad..and its for ppl who are sad...and it happened to be ME..!!!haiz...really sad...den i almost cried ah...lucky i was at home all alone..my eyes became watery and 1 tear drop...but i pull myself together...and i never cry..really was sad...i felt like going to somewer far and being alone and screaming my heart out..!!!the pressure was der the whole time!haiz...guess... 1 day, i'll break down and cry!!!
haiz..ok..i guess till here onli guys...and gals...u all tot tat imsomeone who isalways happy and having tis big smile.but you are all wrOng...im juz a guy who always have a crappy feelings!!!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!HELP ME!!!HELP ME..!!I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...!!!WHY DO I HAVE TIS CHAOTIC LIFE...!!!
TOTALLY CRAP..!!!TOTALLY CHAOS..!!!JUZ A CHAOTIC LIFE..!!!WHY DO I HAVE TIS SHITTY FEELING IN ME..???WHY???JUZ LIVING A SHITTY LIFE...!!!ATTITUDE BROUGHT ME HERE...!!!!DO I DESERVED TO BE LOVED BY ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CARE??.........................................................................................................................WISH SO.........................................................................................................................OVER AND OUT...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!------------------------------>BYELOVE YOU...!!!
i miss you at 3:28:00 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Over and over again...
Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause it's all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over againAnd I can't take it yeah I can't shake itNoooI can't wait to see youWant to see if you still got that look in your eyesThat one you had for me before we said our goodbyesAnd it's a shame that we got to spend our timeBeing mad about the same thingsOver and over againAbout the same thingsOver and over againOhhBut I think she's leavingOoh man she's leavingI don't know what else to do(I can't go on not loving you)Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over again yeahAnd I can't take it yeah I can't shake itNoooI remember the day you leftI remember the last breath you took right in front of meWhen you said that u would leaveI was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anythingBut I see clearly now And this choice I made keep playing in my headOver and over againPlaying my headOver and over againOhhI think she's leavingOoh man she's leavingI don't know what else to do(I can't go on not loving you)Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over again And I can't take it I can't shake itNooo(Now that I've realizes that I'm going downFrom all this pain you've put me throughEverytime I close my eyes I lock it downI can't go on not loving you)Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over againAnd I can't take it I can't shake itNoooCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over againAnd I can't take it I can't shake itNoooOver and Over againOver and Over againCause it's all in my head
i miss you at 4:02:00 PM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
stress...!!!
HERIANDY...will u stop with wat u r teasing me..??I DUN GIVE A FUCK BOUT TAT ANYMORE...AND I DUN CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE...!!!SYAFIZAH...!!!u tooo...STOP TALKING ABOUT ME..!!!WAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO U..!!IF I DIDNT TALK BOUT U..!!DUN TALK ABOUT ME..!!!I DUN LIKE IT..!!!I KNOW U WONT LIKE IT IF I DONE THE SAME TING TO U..!!!ANDY AGAIN..!!!JUZ STOP IT OK..!!!IM PISSED OFF BY TAT SHIT..!!!STOP IT..!!!IM ALREADY STRESS WITH LOTSA TINGS..!!!IF U TINK ITS FUNNY...!!!WELL DUDE..ITS NOT...IT'S VERY IRRITATING... U WONT LIKE IT IF I DID THE SAME TO U...!!!JUZ STOP IT FOR MY SAKE...I WONT CHANGE MY MIND..!!!ITS OVER AND ITS REALLY OVER...I WONT CHANGE MY MIND...!!
ITS THE PAST AND IT IS FORGOTTEN...!!!I DUN WISH TO BE BACK WITH RAHMAN ALL....AND I DUN WISH TO REGAINED THE MEMORIES I GET FROM DER...ITS OVER....I ALREADY LEFT THE FRENZ...DEY ARE JUZ MY NORMAL FRENS...!!!!
ALL OF THEM ARE NORMAL...DONE AND OVER WITH THEM ALREADY...!!!LIMIN....TAT IS WAT IM TALKING ABOUT...!!!ITS ABOUT MY FRIENDSHIP WITH RAHMAN AND 'GANG'...SO SORRY...DIDNT GET TO TELL U FACE TO FACE...!!!MAHIRAH....I MISS U VERY MUCH....I STILL REMEMBER HOW MANY MESSAGES I USE TO SMS U YESTERDAY NIGHT...[18.11.04]
I USED 10 MESSAGES TO SAY ALL THOSE TO U...
i guess...i have to stop here..i juz wanted to let the steam out of my body...it is irritating...im feeling better...`jEn~chaOs
'My life is not confusing, it is chaotic''Manage to hold on but as soon as they started teasing, i just fall from the high cliff. But i was lucky to have u[Mahirah] to catch me from such a high height just to help me. I don't know wat would happen to me if you weren't there for me.'
'My heart belongs to u and no one else. Treasure it with care.''You wouldnt know wat I'm really feeling, i could have been hiding it from u as i dun want to hurt u. Some day, u may see me with a delighted look in my face. But deep down, all the troubles are hurting my heart.''You may see me as someone who is a "happy-go-lucky".But actually, my heart shed a million tears every day.'
'When u feel hurt, i have to comfort u. But maybe, u will reject me.And i will be hurt. But even before im rejected for comforting u, i'm already feeling hurt. As when u are hurt, my heart aches.'I cared for lot of tings. But u are the first one i cared for!Just my sis, Mahirah.
Tats all i wanna say FOR now. I gotta end tis entry.Bye Friends!!Muacks`jEn~10
i miss you at 8:24:00 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Bad Feelings
men..im bored..i can't go out...have to stay at home...coz im sick...so unlucky ah..i missed the NKF day camp...today...supposed to go..but mum dun let...men..wasted..tomorrow also have..but...am i going to be sick till tomorrow..?..also got trng...gonna miss it...must inform brian...i wont be able to see my god sis....haiz...juz have to sms...and chat....hope she will be online ah..mmmp..somemore wat....mmmp...oh yarr....alot of you noe tat it is hols redy...and its boring...haiz...sommore im sick..cannot go and play soccer...so...more boring...aiyah... oh yarr..yesterday...i play soccer...in field... my team challenge taufiq team...which is also called.... masjid team...another words...its reál dragoons against masjid team...and we won...yeah...we already played 4 games...and we never lose any game..not even a draw...good...have to keep tis team going...oh yar.r.tis is the second time we challenging tis team..the first game was....we won 13-1....and noe...we won...6-3...actually..the game was very tight.....first half...we played...dey score first....we were losing...1-0...den khairuldin equalised..the score is 1-1...den its half time...oh yarr..tenks to fifi...he is our coach yesterday...he is a good guy men...really a good guy...he come to support us and give us tips..coz he wanted to help us be a better team...and den...second half...we score and score...and they also score...and so..the scorers are...khairuldin(1), Sabri(1), Khyrul(2), Me(2).....so it is added up to 6...deir scorers are..Izat(1), Faez(1), Shafiq(1)....it is added up to 3....shafiq score in the last minute...and oh yarr...we are onli 10 ppl..and they have 11...we still win.....we really are a good team..now...our nxt challeger will be deli's team...actually...half of his team belong to us...but...dey betray us and they form a new team...'Golden Dragon'... we want to win dem... to prove to them tat we are better...and we dun need them to win...we juz need our players who are commited to our team...ok larr...i tinks till here onli...ok larr..bye... going to update again..if im not bored...ok larr...bye
i miss you at 3:51:00 AM